Friday, May 30, 2014

A Summer Porch

Mags and Luna have been so good with Will they deserve a shout out. Of course we still take many pictures of them! (yes, I'm know I'm nuts). 

In other news, our porch is finally full of life again! My mom and I took our annual trip to Countryside Greenhouse. Will is such a chick magnet wherever we go. We also checked out the baby birdies at my parent's house...such sweet little things!

Afterwards we walked and visited with Aunt Stacy.
Oh how Will loves her!

We also had Tara and Carson visit with their new puppy, Cooper. He's a peach! And of course our nephews are as cute as ever ;)

This weekend we're having a gathering with our small group. It has been almost 6 weeks since we've gotten together with them, and boy, do we miss them. It feels so nice to be out of the house (even if it's one quick walk a day), so our time with them will be extra great!

Sunday will be spent at church, a luncheon (I think of Nancy Drew books when I use that word), and celebrating my sister in law's birthday. Sunday evening Will is going to enjoy his first sleepover at Nana's! To be honest, this completely freaks me out. What if he needs me? What if he gets scared? What if something goes wrong?   

Or what if it is actually wonderful? It will be healthy for Corey and I, and it will be nice to get some sleep (if I stop thinking about Will ;)). Ultimately I like that we're starting the process of having Will be comfortable in a variety of places and practicing rest. I know he'll have a blast. 
Isn't it funny that making healthy choices can sometimes be the most nerve-racking ones?

And now more pictures!

Enjoying tummy time with his strong neck and cute booty

Swaddle fail. Good thing since it was a furnace in his room...

Our little burrito one fine morning

I love them so. so. much

Will wasn't a fan of the bouncer at first

Such a curious boy

Trying to figure out his over-sized ducky robe after bath time 

His yawns just get me :)

 I hope you are enjoying this dandy weather as we are!

Thursday, May 29, 2014

He is Good

Last night I was thankful for the feedings. I held Will tight and took that extra wakeful time to pray. Pray for friends and a student who lost loved ones or are waiting to meet loved ones. 

Great is His faithfulness

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

One Month!

Baby Will is already one month old! 

He smiles more often!
He keeps eating whenever we tickle his knees
He still loves to snuggle on mommy and daddy's chest
He easily adjusts to being held by others
He lasts an average of 3-4 hours in between night feedings in his crib
He enjoys tummy time
He, Maggie and Luna are becoming quick friends
He is starting to enjoy bath time, and he continues to rock the fohawk look
He makes the cutest faces while being tickled on his belly
He lifts his head and loves to look around during the day

We cannot imagine life without you, Will. The Lord is so faithful and good...and we constantly thank Him for you. We love you, William Courtney! 

Monday, May 26, 2014

Memorial Day

Thank you to those who have served and are serving in our armed forces!

My Grandpa, William (Bill) Rogan, served as a marine in WWII

Oh how I miss him...but I am grateful I can share with Will why he was named after him.
A few reasons...

His thoughtfulness and tender heart for others
His care for animals (he named and fed birds and squirrels in his backyard)
His adventurous spirit (roller bladed in his 80's)
His wit and humor
His desire to keep learning about anything and everything
His devotion to Grandma
His love for his children and grandchildren

Although Gramps isn't here with us anymore, I'm thankful for our new William in the family. Hopefully our little one will carry on his legacy. 

Saturday, May 24, 2014

10 Reminders to Myself About Life with a Newborn

I was reflecting over these past 4 weeks of motherhood, and I decided I needed to write myself some reminders for when we have baby #2 (which won't be for a long time)...and I'll probably repeat them to myself in the coming months as well ;)
In proper Holly fashion, these reminders about a new life with a newborn will be in list format...

1. Give yourself grace. You are not perfect and neither is he...and that's what makes it beautiful. Take deep breaths. You are not meant to have this/him figured out right away (although the solver in you wishes it were so). Don't feel guilty for feeling frustrated, overwhelmed, exhausted or scared. We already know you love this little baby more than words can express (duh, you blogged about it), so allow yourself to be real. Give yourself grace.

2. Pray, pray, pray. The Lord loves this little one ten million times more than you do. He made him, and He knows what's best. He is sovereign and His ways are so good. You can trust Him. Pray His power would be made perfect in your weakness as 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 proclaims. (Remember how He used those verses to grow you in college!)

3. Remember you have an incredible support system. You are insanely blessed with a supportive family and many friends nearby. Keep asking for help. Or text them constantly. Be in communication with others frequently so you do not feel alone. It's healthy to get out of the house sans baby at least once those first two weeks.

4. Thank those in item #3 either with words or acts. It doesn't have to be right away, but they need to know how much you needed them and were thankful for them. You need to show the same love to them that they provided for you.

5. As a friend recently told me, "the first month is just bananas." It sure is. It's wonderful, unpredictable, exciting, and trying beyond anything you could ever prepare for (sorry Miss Type A). It's just bananas. Really, bananas. Embrace all the feelings and accept those crazy hormones. Remember there are fun, proud and silly moments in there too!

6. Remember you are normal. The hormones hit every mother, not just you. No one else has it all figured out, nor should they/you. To feel out of control yet so deeply moved and in love is normal. No need to compare yourself with others, just remember you are becoming a better version of you through this.

7. It's not meant to be easy. But it will get better. The hormones and initial chaos dissipate and you're left with an incredible miracle. The sleep-deprived state of psychosis won't last, and you'll get used to 2-3 hour stretches of sleep. Hang in there because you will make it.

8. Take one day at a time. Feel free to make those sleep schedules and plans for the future. I know you will anyway. But when it's difficult just focus on today. Other hard things will inevitably come, but you only need to be in the present. 

9. Tell Corey how much you love him and continue to let/ask him to help. He is already a fantastic daddy and needs to be reminded of this on a consistent basis. Plan date nights (ice cream, walks, dinner, movie) together...even if the date lasts one hour, it's totally worth it.

10. Try to rest when possible in order to have enough energy to soak in every detail. 
The tiny, soft feet as they rub against your skin when he feeds. The alert eyes, strong neck muscles, and tight grasp. His scent when he gets a bath. The humming sounds he makes when he eats. His alarmingly loud toots and the faces that accompany them. His smiles when you tickle his belly. His sighs and snorts he makes while sleeping. His head full of that silky hair. That face he makes when he lifts his eyebrows real high and lifts his head back. How he has to have at least one hand on the bottle at all times. How he melts into your chest after a fit of crying. The way he stretches when you wake him from a nap. The smell of that formula that's landed all over everyone and everything.

He is amazing, and he is yours.

 This time is precious, Holly...and you will do a stellar job.

Thursday, May 22, 2014

A friend

Do you have a friend who knows you better than you know yourself? Like they nearly know you as much as your spouse does? Or even more so in some ways?

I have a friend like this. She's really more like a sister. 

I feel the need to write a post about her just because I feel indebted to her. 

This friend...

listens to me cry
encourages me when I'm overwhelmed
gently confronts me when I'm being nutty
laughs with me till we (okay, just me) pee our pants
provides prayer and scripture to support me even when I'm too proud to ask
knows my crazy OCD habits and loves me anyway
reminds me of my strengths
lifts me up when my weaknesses take over
is available at any time
talks about any and every bodily function possible with me
rejoices in my celebrations as if they are her own

See why I feel like I owe her? She does all those things for me. I didn't even talk about all her own strengths!

If she doesn't show Christ's love to me, then I don't know what sister-friend does.

There's so much more I would like to write, but Stac, know I thank the Lord for you day after day after day...too many times to recount. 

Thank you for being a friend. 
*Insert Golden Girls theme song*

My best friend.

ps Not sure why the heck we're holding hands here. But I thought a ridiculous picture was perfect :)

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Morning Reflection

I loved this article I read today, so I thought I'd share it.

Being a mom has been wonderful, scary, humbling, and exciting for my first few weeks. 

It's certainly not about me...and that's a good thing.

Monday, May 19, 2014

3 Weeks!

Will is 3 weeks old today! 

I've been surprised by how much he's already changed! He's almost outgrown his newborn onesies, and he's finally eating like a champ now that he's formula-fed. And of course we think he's still as handsome as ever ;)

Sleeping these past three weeks has been a bit rough for me if I'm being completely honest. Of course I can be honest, this is my blog. It's something I couldn't plan for, and it has been exhausting in a normal, newborn way. Will has completely switched from the bassinet in our bedroom to the crib in his own room. I'm in love with our video monitor. He just started taking a 1.5 hour nap in the crib each day, and sometimes we get a shorter nap in there too. Otherwise he still snuggles on me or Daddy (hard habit to break ;)) or sometimes in his swing.

Will is laying on me as I type this. He may or may not have Skinny Pop crumbs all over himself. What a messy eater...

I think napping in the crib without his pacifier has allowed us to do a little better at night as the three of us figure out how this all works. We have had a few nights of...only waking up two times to feed, not having to constantly go put a pacifier back in his mouth, and then doing a few occasional is-he-still-breathing-and perfect wake ups. Those nights were so refreshing and keep me going during the long ones that seem to never end.

A friend suggested the Baby Wise book (thanks Christina!), so I've looked up some of it's sleep strategies, and I am eager to receive it in the mail. My goal is to have Will sleeping through the night by six weeks. Sleeping through the night=I'd be happy with a 4-6 hour stretch. Rarely we get a 4 hour stretch at night...typically it's a 2-3 hour routine. And often it's 2-3 hours of intermittent crying/fussiness for no real reason...this newborn thing is tricky business I tell ya. 

I know he's only 3 weeks, we'll have continual set backs, and we may not achieve it on my timeline...but it feels so lovely for the planner in me to have something to work towards rather than staying in this whole limbo/no schedule/I have no ideas phase. I have to take one day at a time and soak in his littleness while I still can though. And Corey has been our rock during this time...a great reminder to be thankful that I get to do life with him :)

On a random note, I left the house by myself for the first time in 3 weeks! I went to Meijer for an hour to get a slushie (obvious necessity) and print some pictures. I had not realized how insanely much I needed it. I didn't feel guilty about leaving, but rather, I remembered how much I need a few minutes of alone time. I'm a happier momma when I can recharge :) With that said, I am itching to begin running and lifting again. Exercise is so beneficial to my mental health, but I know I need to ease into it, so for now we're going on more walks. I'm pumped to take Will with me on some runs when he's older!

And now it's picture time!

 I love my little sweetheart!

His little newborn stretches and sounds are the best

Best buds already
(Mags likes to lick his diaper...ehhh)

At least one of us is getting sleep...

Who me?

"He said, 'My grace is sufficient for you. For my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
2 Corinthians 12:9