Saturday, October 29, 2016

A Quick Update

We have been quite thankful that my numbers have decreased quickly, and it has only taken 7 weeks for me to be negative! We praise God for His provision. I have three more weeks of blood draws before going monthly. This is fantastic news that we do not take for granted. 

Honestly, I've been doing well overall, but this week was a bit rough. Out of nowhere the grief and loneliness hit. As a social worker, I know that's normal, and I attempt to embrace it...while still trying to maintain a sense of normalcy. A partial molar pregnancy isn't normal though. I really cannot do it in my own strength.

There have been quite a few pregnancy announcements this past week, and what I absolutely don't want to be is bitter or unhappy for others. So although grief is ever present and tricky, the Lord has given me peace. Sometimes I need a moment, but I pray that I would continue to be excited for all those sweet babies that are popping up on my newsfeed--babies are such a blessing! 

And that's it for now. There's about a million more things I could say (about the miscarriage, work, life in general), but I don't have the words for them quite yet. Overall, I am choosing gratitude. And I'm trying to be obedient as the Lord continues to refine my very human heart. Thankfully, I've got lots of room for growth :) 

Thursday, October 27, 2016

Will: 2.5 Years

Our sweet little boy is 2.5 years old! 

Currently, Will is...

having conversations
starting to ask "why momma?"
fully potty trained
counting to 10 (20 with help)
identifies shapes and colors
singing the ABCs
obsessed with trucks, construction vehicles, airplanes, trains
head-over-heals for Sesame Street, Mighty Machines and Bob the Builder

Will loves to be goofy, dance and sing. He's a social butterfly and tries to keep up with the big neighbor kids. He loves to ride his "motorcycle", play sports, and do "cartwheels" in the yard. He just transitioned to a big bike with training wheels! It was the absolute sweetest when we got it for him (a hand-me-down from his cousins). He gasped when he saw it and then yelled, "biiiiiiiike!" followed by "thank you". Melt my heart!

Will is also doing more pretend play which is so fun to witness. He loves to snuggle with us and with his stuffed animals. Will enjoys church and can recognize when we're close (or near other places). Will no longer takes naps, so we're trying to teach him quiet time. The lack of nap makes him extra sleepy in the evening but bedtime has improved significantly now.

Will has a decreased appetite since he'd rather be playing, but he always eats better if we're with other people. He is still obsessed with peanut butter though. Will loves babies, and he loves to help. He also has his fair share of tantrums! Typically when he's tired or hangry...like most kids (and me). Now that our lives are more stable, we've been back to focusing on "nice words", less screen time and more independence with tasks.

Corey's mom took some family pictures last week, and these are some of my favorites:















Although this season has been difficult for us, I am incredibly thankful for our family and the many, many blessings we have. The Lord has been good to us.

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Gratitude

We are feeling all sorts of gratitude that my levels are at 7. I will continue to do weekly blood draws after my levels are >5 (considered negative) and then go to monthly draws to ensure that my levels stay down/the molar tissue has not regrown. Thankfully, once they are negative for a few weeks in a row, the likelihood of regrowth is very low.

Now that we've had time to grieve (and continue to do so as it creeps up here and there), my hormones are finally stabilized, my body is getting back to normal, we have the reassurance of my levels dropping, and I'm getting over a pesky cold...we have been able to get back into a more healthy rhythm. Less survival and more intentional. 

Again, I am amazed at the Lord's graciousness and power. He has guided us through this journey, and we continue to trust in Him as we keep going through it. He really is good, and we will be exclaiming that no matter what our circumstances are (as annoying as they may be :)). I have been feeling considerably less anxious about our future for which I am grateful. I'm thankful how the Lord has grown me and will continue to refine me through this as I have much to learn still.

We are also thankful, once again, for the outpouring of love we have receive by friends and family near and far. The Lord provides us with exactly what we need when we need it, and we have been comforted by so many. I have been encouraged by and honored to hear similar stories of others. 

I am excited for the child God has prepared for us and the day that we can meet him/her. In the meantime, we continue to process, pray and seek joy. We will continue to be excited for those around us as we are constantly reminded that the Lord is near and holy. We praise Him for that.

The last few posts were incredibly raw and honest. Since my hormones have gone down, my posts may not be so intense (we'll see anyway, ha!). Whatever happens, we "trust in the Lord with all our hearts"...the verse Will memorized last month for church.

And hopefully I'll finally get around to writing an update about Will since he has grown SO much! He's the just the sweetest (and sassiest) <3 More to come!

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Pumpkin Patch!

This past weekend Corey's friend, Moseley, was up visiting for the weekend. There was a lot of lounging and football watching which was fabulous. We also went to Schwallier's on Sunday for donuts, pumpkins and play.












We're so thankful for this time together!